It’s not how good you are, it’s how good you want to be

A kind reminder to myself: stay firm to what I’ve decided and move ahead. Dont be easily affected by others.

Finally had dinner at Din Tai Fung instead of Burger King. Nice service, nice environment and nice food, but not nice neighbor sitting next to us. The guy kept talking and blowing water, and I saw the lady eating with him didn’t really talk in the whole meal. 
got the raincoat bear~~ thx!

After dinner, went to MK to 掃街! 好開心~~

終於將想講好耐既野講出來, 幾好~ 因為唔知你點諗/費事多事/唔關我事… 所以一直都冇講. 今次講咁多野, 都係想你唔駛咁辛苦捱騾仔. 都係嗰句, 你既條件唔止得到而家既野, u deserve more!

好凍呀~~~

tho it’s a bit annoying to call several times to me (saying the similar words only…), it’s sweet~

Eat too much recently… lose control…

有冇人/識人得閒做parttime? Very urgent!!!

有冇人/識人得閒做parttime? Very urgent!!!

Not happy at all. Wat for?

2008/4/14-15

2008/4/15

晏晝同老同學吃飯~ 十一個飽~~~　不過好開心，超耐冇見了，要多d食飯呀

有冇人/識人得閒做parttime? Very urgent!!!

Cos last nite I couldn’t sync songs to ipod, needed to listen to songs online. Joey Joey Joey~~~ Still Sing well, but I just wondered why the Part 2 didn’t change the rundown from part 1, which is quite disappointing. Anyway, it’s a good concert cos she really sang well!

Got HKFAA & Andy Lau’s concert DVD from Max, thanks!!

2008/4/14

Already knew 長隆大馬戲係抵睇的, 連爸爸媽媽都係咁講, 不過而家廣州d洗費都唔平…

個白痴logitech cam係用唔到usb hub架, 廢爆

原本諗住整埋幾首joey既歌過ipod預備聽晚演唱會, 連機都hang埋, 算囉

起唔切身, 遲左一個字… 算啦 照食麥記老早 估唔到咁都撞到舊同事~~~

2008 4/13

“We must take our doubts to Jesus. In His time and in His own wise way He will restore the confidence our hearts desire.”

Pizzahut just pissed me off! after selecting all food we wanted to order for dinner and ready to click “order” button, its website crashed and closed! ShxT! My sis & I were cross and called to the hotline, and their response was “wait around 1 hr to get your pizza.” FINE, we went to KFC to buy one chicken bucket, 9 chickens and lots of food…超爆飽

多少往事甜在心頭
夜雨觸花這景致令我憂愁
望見她的身影已無法佔有
我未有想過絕望看她走
分手兩字情絕不留
為愛傷心的聲線變了懷舊
愛不轟動了　什麼都嫌少

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聽歌呀聽歌…

mi, good show! 好瘦呀佢… 多謝max幫我錄, 仲會有華叔添~~~

要諗下既問題, 點算好…

Too much for me, already

Have been 3 weeks long I had a whole day off, no work, no tutoring. I long for today

Went to granma’s place to fix some computer problems for gran and aunt… just really dont and cant understand why those young people just dont give little time to help them solve those simple issues… are those few clicks really waste of your time? You just dont care! Anyway, a nice big family gathering to celebrate my aunt’s bday. Met everyone and ate a lot, from noon to nite…

The things recently happening on me inspired me a lot. Too many similar cases I know and I realised the fact is, those things are happening in everywhere, on everyone, at every moment, regardless of age, sex, in or not in a relationship. What the hell is going on? I can’t believe but this is the real world, and they do exist. Am I too naive to believe in simple love? I guess so. I dont like and hate love games, miserably this seems to become the norms or rules to survive in love world. Or does pure love still exist? Love diminishes but everywhere is filled with hurts, lies, distrust, suspicion, tricks, traps… Relationships are no longer 1-1 but can grow like the networks in facebook… People seeking mates because they are afraid they will be lonely or simply they just love the ones and want to love? Sex is kind of casual or even a social thing that really doesn’t matter a lot. It happens everywhere! I am just too late to know and understand all these facts, but that’s enough, I’m really sick of all these. I’m still hard to believe what’s going on around me, well perhaps I’m actually the freak in others’ eyes: take these so serious.

I used to be a person wanted to find my love and strive for the future with all my efforts, as much as I could do, what in my imagination was good. Now I know it’s not easy and I doubt it’s wrong at all. I have no hopes. I’m weak and strengthless to live in such place. I just want to escape and stop my bleeding.  I’m damn lost right now.

Where are my 正能量子? Seems all’s gone…

One good thing to cheer me up, Sammi will be one of the hosts for tomorrow’s Hong Kong Films Award!!!!! I just knew it today! Must watch!!! How long she hasn’t been on TV as a MC???! and this time with Dodo Cheng & Sandra Ng! Wow, must rush back home~ I already missed her today @ Time Square.

Sammi only participates in charity work after her concerts. As a host for HKFAA, she doesn’t charge any and needs to prepare what she wears for the ceremony because they’re running out of money. Isn’t she so good? hehe, love her!

Too too complicated

Hadbefore a presentation. Per my boss said, “a poorly explained presentation” about MPF.

Had Jap lunch with ex-colleagues, nice chat, lots of laughters.

Q1 corporate update accompany with red wine, beer, dim sum, music, isn’t that good? The dot.com’s working life should be like this.

It’s too complicated. Like what my colleague said, “handle with care, it’s highly fragile.”

Hey fds, get used to my “ok, bye!” when ending calls. That’s only a way of ending call, never meant I wanted to hang up for long!

The Challenge Of Forgiveness

• What can I do to steady myself and stop thinking about it?
  The song popped into my mind

I’ve heard it all before
I’ve heard it all before
I’ve heard it all before
I’ve heard it all before
[ repeat ]

I don’t wanna hear, I don’t wanna know
Please don’t say you’re sorry
I’ve heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don’t wanna hear, I don’t wanna know
Please don’t say ‘forgive me’
I’ve seen it all before
And I can’t take it anymore

You’re not half the man you think you are
Save your words because you’ve gone too far
I’ve listened to your lies
and all your stories (Listen to your stories)
You’re not half the man you’d like to be

I don’t wanna hear, I don’t wanna know
Please don’t say you’re sorry
I’ve heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don’t wanna hear, I don’t wanna know
Please don’t say ‘forgive me’
I’ve seen it all before
And I can’t take it anymore

Don’t explain yourself cause talk is cheap
There’s more important things
than hearing you speak
You stayed because I made it so convenient
Don’t explain yourself, you’ll never see

… and after the song, I read The Challenge Of Forgiveness from ODB. “Forgiveness is achingly difficult, and long after you’ve forgiven, the wound lives on in memory.” Is it a lesson for me?

• Thanks Dodo
• My parents will go to Guangzhou長隆睇馬戲 “森林密碼”, 我都好想去睇…
• 其實公司搞”benefit focus group” is good~ back and forth of ideas like more paid day offs, make our work life funnier, adding more social activities, clearer and easier access to benefit coverage… will they really listen to?

2008-4-9

My ex-colleague called me, he’s still funny. Feeling happy for him starting a new job already. Wish you all best!

Thanks Dodo for helping me in the project! Job well done!

Thanks Max for buying the ext HDD for my boss. He then asked me to reimburse from my account. Reimburse… for his personal use…

2008/04/08

• When can I buy a mbp? Seems they are revamping the design. Every year Apple is playing the same trick… if I wait for the new design and new configuration, it may be the soonest in Nov-Feb. I’ve been already waiting for a year long. Should I still wait, or grab one during BTS period? Apple, you are the evil.
• Bro finally found a nice package for BKK’s trip. Happy for them!
• Had a very nice lunch @ Union Bar @ IFC with Ling. It’s actually a bday lunch for her, but also time for updating my situation with mouse  She shared her last trip in Guangzhou with me, so refreshing! When will be my next trip …? Seems everyone is heading for a trip e.g. Sydney, China, BKK, S Korea, should I spot a place to go?
  We gotta have lunch/dinner with Ying soon! Is it possible to have the whole group again…?
• 竟然係石硤尾聽到富豪雪糕車聲…

我的最愛…

男: 我們分開 怎麼始終行不開 想捉緊當日精彩
女: 或是害怕完全淡出你那份愛 離場後跑回來
男: 不知可算應該
女: 貼身不再 但卻貼心裝載
男: 隨時代你哭處理淚流
女: 如後備兩手是否足夠 即使那日放了手
男: 雙腳似未學會走
合: 停留在這段情
男: 不懂去 女: 退守
男: 全部舊記憶這刻重遊
女: 重拾舊愛都或太荒謬
男: 運氣不夠
女: 牽不了手
合: 也算得今世獨有對你太好 怎會累透
男: 如心跳是可以避免
女: 縈繞卻是你的聲線
男: 慣了照顧的不會變
女: 不告別也不發現 對你愛顧早蔓延
合: 對你再好 不會廝守

 

Grand opening

Have been reading through every words I wrote in the past. I remember everything.

I was not happy for years, my life wasn’t easy. I need a change. My life can’t be like this anymore.

Here is the collection of my past, though there are still some private posts I’m not planning to uncover.

The below two entries were just my brief memory logs about last year. You may click the links to see my old blog entries from 2003 to 2007.

I want my life back.